NASTY

Some may call me nasty but I would see myself as someone who only speaks the ugly truth whether others like it or not.

I just saw some pictures of a relative's daughter, ugly with a big bumper blotty nose taking loads of pictures of herself and showing it off on facebook. SUPER EWWWW! There were pictures of blood coming out of her mouth and trickling down her hands. Was that suppose to be artistic, NOT! The face befitted the concept but it would have had a better effect had the face been changed to a real good looking vampire! This girl was in sheer denial of herself, so sad. My face cringed as I scroll photo by photo. I did that only because I wasn't sure who it was until I saw her take a photo of herself with her mother and then my jaw fell down. Seriously I don't see any resemblance of her with our kin and yet another nasty thought crept into my mind, did she belong to my cousin at all. Her mother did have a shoddy background having lived with a bunch of men during her time and what would stop her from having another fling without the knowledge of her husband?! You could stand the girl with her brother and no one alive would have guessed they were siblings! Not a single resemblance whatsoever!

Talking about facebook, don't you just get so bored of reading all the well wishes and nice wishes to every picture or comment? There is this unrelenting unwinding long list of people saying nice things everywhere, it just sickens me how many bullshitters there are in this world! The only postings I enjoy are my brother's, at least, the convo is real. I get so tired of reading some of my cousins going on about how wonderful this was and that was and I have this strong urge to just play it straight to their faces! There's just really a whole lot of crock going on there, its tiresome. Why can't people just be real and when they see something they dislike, they just ignore it and not even defend themselve, lame chicken crap!

Anyway, that's my complain for the day. My manic state must be in play!

HAH! TRUTH BE TO THE WORLD AND MAY THE WORLD LEARN TO ACCEPT UGLY TRUTHS AND NOT JUST HIDE BEHIND IT!

DIAMONDS ARE FOREVER!

I have landed myself with 2 new diamonds rings and a new crucifix (how on do you spell it, ah well, I think I got it right!) Oh! Oh! and a brand new car. Am I spoilt or what? Yes, I am and I am just loving it! Everyone else got a great present for Christmas from Santa Carlos. New handphone for Santa Carlos and Q. Ryan got his first laptop at the age of 8! What else can one ask for. It's when you don't ask that you will receive in the material world.

Love driving my new wheels, its not a merc or a beamer or a honda like my rich siblings but it's new and after a whole 5 year wait! Nice size to match mine and not having to ride in a Mr Bean car with 3 overweight people and young adult girl is well deserved. Even Ryan was shy about us going out in the little car. Q has inherited the little car to improve her driving skills and I am preparing myself for little damages to happen or rather I am praying that it would not. She is a pretty careful driver and my prayers should hold strong.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS, BLESSED CHRISTMAS and HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!

4 HOLES ON EACH SIDE

Got my anniversary present, so now I have 4 ear piercings on each side of my ears. My beautifully adorned ears. Now when I wash my hair I have to do it ever so carefully so as not to knock any of them out of the piercings. Painful but worth the while totally.

Some husbands like mine still do exist and I say a prayer to those who haven't found their perfect fit to not ever give up on the silver lining. Presevere and you will find! Pray and you will receive....a little out of context and sounding a little selfish but somehow God comes through one way or the other!

Last day to be alone with my ever difficult boss. He told me off to no avail and I am happy as a pea that my counter will return to cushion half the load and scoldings from tomorrow onwards...YIPPEEE!

THANKS BE TO GOD FOR EVERY WONDERFUL DAY THAT COMES ALONG!

10TH ANNIVERSARY! WE MADE IT! HAHAHAHA

A sheer record for both Carlos and I. We have never been with another person for more than 3-4 years! All the suffering, all the ups and downs, all the fighting and making up, we managed to pull it through. Now it's next to the next 10 years if we both live that long...hopefully we do.

No present yet, still waiting and my ears are already pierced ready to receive it. Hahahaha Yup, I am nothing but presumptious all the time. I didn't get him anything, he wants a computer that is not in the market yet and neither could I afford the gagdets that Carlos always want to have. So like that la!

Planned a big do for the anniversary and decided not to have it after all. Too expensive lor! Better save up for Perth and Spain!

BROKEN PURSE

I hate going out on weekends! I still can't resist buying things for everyone. Blew my savings and didn't even get my darling Carlos an anniversary present! He is getting a new laptop for his anniversary present. Strange but as long as it makes him happy! he deserves everything good thing that comes to him. He is a good man and a good husband!

Despite spending all the dough on new stuff, we had a great time, Ryan had his fun at the arcade, Q had her shopping for new clothes again! Her double door cupboard is a magical one, more and more stuff and it's still not bursting out yet. Now that she has a queen sized bed, she can hide more shoes underneath!

Watched 2012, it was ok, I guess, too much slow moving parts, cheesy ones at the most unlikely time and too little special effects with a couple of funny scenes. Best was the part where they had to start the Bentley to escape the crashing plane. Adam Lambert's song befitted the movie to the tee but the rest of the family didn't want to stay on to finish listening to the song. They should have shown the video clip!

House owner came to show the house to potential buyers, so we are in pre-preparation mode to move out again! Pray that it won't happened till we save more money to move again. Maybe a couple of years more and then we can spring clean and reduce all the crab we have accumulated for the year!

Summary to all this, I am broke again, what's new?

INDIAN CHRISTMAS TREE

The tree is up but it looks like a cross between Diwali and Christmas with pearl strings being twined around it! And it is leaning like the Tower of Pisa. The tree was done up by a muslim! One Malaysia!

Its chicken pie dinner from Dave's Deli tonight and I have to go get my facial wash, before I get uglier without my skin care. Been out of it for a month now. With full time work, there is little time to do anything else. Too little time for self indulgence or rather just too lazy after work.

Gonna have a big whopper of a breakfast tomorrow, can't wait!

ANOTHER STAB ON THE BACK!

Twice now the driver has stabbed my back...Got hold of information about boss itinerary and took the opportunity to skip work. Then he was speeding was supposed to pay the fine and he blamed me for saying that it would be paid by the boss. What a bummer! Just silly old trusting me... Never learn the lesson ever, I am just too trusting. Got to learn to be sly!

Miracle! I was just thinking about my old school friends, those who don't care too hoots about me, googled some of them to no luck and then today, one my oldest childhood friend called and had a quick chat. She is the only one I have know since I was like 6. Seems she kept in touch with some of the girls.

Might meet up with one of them when I am in Australia. They'd be shocked to see how big I have become. One real big MAMA MIA!

NEWSPAPER CAR WIPER

Newspaper on Windscreen Wiper

And I thought it would be another boring day!

Had a boring nestum lunch, a good chat but after lunch was amusing. My colleague came back from lunch, parked her car next to mine and found my newspaper from home stuck in the rear windscreen wiper!

I had driven 15km with the newspaper stuck behind. Talk about advertising! What a sight it must have been for those following behind me! People must be telling my story around. Ha ha ha ha ha!

Headache's gone so it's a nice day after all....

LAZY WEEKEND

Sleeping and A Snorin!

Had a huge Seri Melur roti canai breakfast on Saturday. When will my diet ever start! Had a huge Little Master Kitchen tim sum brunch on Sunday. When will the eating stop? Then nap, nap and more naps....totally happy!

Been through a break-down season for us. Air con down, then Astro down, now fan is broken...What next? Everytime this happens it's blamed on me for some reason or other. Wonder why, in my husband's syllabus there is no such thing as wear and tear....Ah Well!

2nd week into November. Can't wait for December to come and for the other Jasmine to come back to take over the reigns....

WHAT A DINNER!

At d'Tandoor's

Yesterday night, it was raining but nevertheless, we got into our little Mr Bean car and headed out to dinner at d'Tandoor at Subang Jaya.

Husband, wife, teenage daughter and 8 year old son. Our total order was 1 chicken dish, 1 prawn dish, 1 vege dish, 1 order of puri, 2 orders of butter naans, 2 orders of briyani, 1 order of vege naan, 2 drinks and 3 desserts totalling RM155 and 4 round tummies going home. The tyres of the car flattened by 2 more inches.

All went home happy that our indian cravings were satisfied!

Someone commented on a website that their food wasn't good but I beg to differ as it was good enough for this family of four!

Though gloomy today, do have an enjoyable one nevertheless!!

WET BLANKETS & BUCKET OF ICE

So Far 3 Wet Ones

To be honest, 2 wet blankets and a bucket of ice!

Wet Blanket One:
My husband bursted through the roof on the amount of money needed to work with the publishing house. Cited all my past projects being failures coupled with loss of income. Talk about giving me a chance to pull this through! When asked for another solution or advise, non was given...Roadblock!

Blanket No. 2
This was handled pretty diplomatically. My godmother asked around and found out that it would be quite impossible to sell to hospitals because they would rather have free copies to hand out. Then she told me about another aunt's failure in selling her tape recordings of her singing. Loss of money...Its not just about the money. Its about accomplishing something that has been given the green light to publish. Its about sharing my stories to help others.

Bucket of Ice:
My mother is upset with my book, talk about discouragement. She called it shit stuff then through my sister, she explained that she was worried that my family and I would be defamed, what so nice about talking of such a shameful thing...but that's the whole idea, who wants to read about good stuff, its the bad and ugly truth that can result in good and if it can help others get better, WHY NOT?

However, I have received more than 10 responses to NOT GIVE UP and have even secured a sponsor!

I REST MY CASE!

Thanks Google Image for the pictures!

PUBLISHERS SAID "YES" TO MY BOOK!

But only to part of it! Bugger!

Went for the meeting, and it went just ok. They said it was good, thatI had a good writing style and the stories were unbelieveably true, just needed to have it cleaned up a bit, that they would take part of the production of it, that they would edit, produce, promote, market and distribute it but I would have to come up with taking more than half of the cost. So how la? Keeping options open, looking for other publishing houses.

Good news is that I have already been offered a sponsorship. If publishing house fails, we will self publish it and distribute it, do it the slow and steady way whilst I complete my second book.

God has opened my door and I shall go through it and see where it leads me to. Thanks be to God and Christ All Mighty!

BAD WEATHER TODAY!

But it ain't getting me down!

Just spoke to the editor and they are deciding on my book! Asked for another day for them to decide if they want my book. Both editor and chief editor are in discussions now. Got to wait till the weekend's over before they come back to me on Monday!

Have a great and wet weekend! Hope the cable TV gets fixed up for this weekend or else ....... Aaargh I will send a tornado twister their way, I promise!

MY BOOK IS WITH THE PUBLISHER!

EXCITED ABOUT MY FIRST BOOK!

Keeping all fingers crossed that it will receive some positive response. They have confirmed that they would get back to me by end of the week and that I should hold on to sharing it with other publishers until then.

It's been a rainy day but not enough to pull my spirits down. Life is about hope and faith and whatever it takes, I will see it through.

Who says bipolar people don't finish projects they start, I finished my book and that alone is making me feel like I am on top of the world!

HERE'S TO A HAPPY EVENING TO ALL OF YOU!

IT WAS BECAUSE OF BIPOLAR AFTER ALL!

It’s amazing how time flies! My last blog was in November and since then my world is totally different now. Looking back at my old blogs, there was so much bitterness thanks to bipolar disorder.

Since then, I have been diagnosed put on medication, gotten better over the months, gotten a temp job, wrote a book, writing my 2nd book and behaving less impulsive and erratic.

Feels good to be back.

To all those that I have blogged nastily about, my apologies but that was how I felt then and I don’t feel it now….blame it on the bipolar disorder!